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your a heartbreaker dream taker
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There was a time I was confident that whenever something happened to me that if I went to a doctor and told them it would get fixed or at least they'd figure out what it was that was wrong. After 4 plus months of bouncing from GP to neurologist to Eye specialist to ER to MRI and back, I am convinced that only people who have few interesting things going on are actually doctors and that they spend years learning only how to be contemptuous and dismissive. Out of all the appointments I have had to PAY to get to because of Ottawa's beyond STUPID transit strike, all I have to show for my illness is a variety of forms saying that after looking at me I have been pronounced not ill.
We're not talking about being tested here, we're talking about having a drunk test (walk in a straight line, hold your hands out and touch your nose, jump on one foot test) and a reflex test done I have been told that I am not suffering migraines, numbness in my hands feet and face, buzzing in my ears, nausea, dizziness, burning pain in my eyes, eye sockets and hands and arms, seizures in my right hand, jaw spasticity and facial ticks at all. In short I'm suffering unrelated symptoms and have been told that my problems are psychological. I have seen a shrink who says I don't need to see him either because I am not suffering psychologically.
To add to my joy I was forced back to work during this scary time, by the insurance company because the stroke neuro says I didn't have a stroke and the MS neuro says I don't have MS (PS from both - DON'T COME BACK) - while NOTHING else has been examined at all as a cause. I went to my GP friday to be told there's nothing he can do and no he won't test me for anything because I had some blood tests done on or before September last year and I was fine then so I don't need it. Well I'm worse now then I was then soI DO NEED IT. I got so mad I stormed out of his office. He told me if I wanted something done about the seizures I have in my right hand and arm that last for about 2 hours each and leave me unable to use my arm for the better part of 24 hours after - then I had better call the neuros I had already seen and ask if they can be bothered to see me again. I went there thinking that even if he couldn't do anything he would at least pretend that this was a) IMPORTANT NEWS, B) SCARY to me and not to be smirked at and c) say he would get me into a neuro to get this checked out. Apparently proactivity from a doctor these days is ABNORMAL. If I advance from focal to Grand Mal seizures he will believe me. And he also accused me of lying about wht the shrink said, saying "I haven't gotten his report yet so I don't know what he said."
If there is a lawyer out ther reading this can I sue any and all of these freaks for their inability to look for a reason that after 37.5 years of never having these issue I am having them? Can I sue for frustration and plain old malpractice? I can't believe out of the lot of them only one Doctor has found anythig out of the usual and he is an opthamologist. Not the one I expected to believe me after all this or to work hard to determine what the issue is.
I totally hate Doctors all together now and IF it turns out they missed something severe I will sue, that will wipe the smirks and attitudes right out of their universe ( I hope but probably not).
Keep blogging.
ghost writer Ambrrrr at 2:29 PM
26 October 2008
well i loooked all over the world
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I have a love hate relationship with doctors. I know there is something wrong with me, I go to the doctor. A lot of the time I'm told I'm wrong and sent off with a different diagnosis or remedy for what I'm told is ailing me. Over the years it's been ok but now that I am having some very atypical issues, it's kinda annoying. I saw Dr. Quack the stroke neurologist Monday and he basically made fun of me. I spent more time talking to the nurse and intern then to him, and when we did speak he didn't really look at me, he had an entire conversation with my knees.
The bottom line, or his anyways, was I didn't have a stroke so he wasn't interested. To sum up he said I didn't really have migraines I had tension headaches, that I kept getting headaches because I took medication to get rid of them and to stop that and suffer with it. Also according to him my hands face and feet are numb because I have carpal tunnel and my eye issues can be chalked up to bad glasses so I should get my prescription updated.
I had the EMG where they basically zap you with varying degrees of voltage to see how the nerve conducts, and it really hurt at the high end and on the 'funny' bone, but the testers assessment is that I DO NOT have carpal tunnel in the least. Take that Dr. Quack. My family Dr. desperately wants me to have an MRI and I have an appointment with a neurologist the 20th November - this one is supposed to be a headache Dr., and if that doesn't work out I have an appointment at the Headache Clinic in March to see another headache Dr. because DR. Quack believes in referrals so I got referred right away from him alright.
In the meantime I am well disappointed that I don't know what's going on yet. I was hoping I'd get lucky and know something by now but nope. And of course the insurance people are screwing me around for my short term, apparently everyone thinks I should go to work and leave sick everyday thereby ensuring I get paid even less then the stupid sick pay, because then no one would have to do any work over there at Sunlife. I don't think they work much anyways since returning calls is the easiest thing to do and they don't. I really love not being able to work and panicking about being evicted because they think it's funny to send me 100$ a week, which is less then waht I make in a day at work.
I'm going to go cry. Keep blogging.
ghost writer Ambrrrr at 11:59 AM
09 October 2008
all of these lines upon my face tell you the story of who I am
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I've been lax again but I have a really good reason. I've been getting weird headaches, blurred vision, numbness in my hands and face, and a host of other on going and annoying issues. My Dr won't guess what's wrong, except it maybe MS. I had a CAT scan and they found nothing (yes I had my head examined and there's nothing there) but no one wants to list possible conditions that include the above and other symptoms. It's kept me from work and I can't travel far without feeling like hell but other then that contemplating how I would live my life as someone with a disability such as this has been on my mind as of late. It makes me kind of all brood and no fun gal.
I'm seeing a neurologist on the 20th so hopefully something will be found out then and I can get fixed up and figure out how to live my life with whatever is the issue.
Keep blogging.
ghost writer Ambrrrr at 4:13 PM
